There are many blessings in store for all of us.
When I think about myself and the journey that I’m on, there’s not a doubt in my mind that God has been orchestrating all of the details of my life especially when I think of the location I am in, but this wasn’t the first time. During my undergrad, I went from not being focused to battling depression to overcoming both. I went from being a student who didn’t care to use their potential and was on academic probation to graduating with honors. I went from suffering in a dark place to developing a relationship with Christ and seeing His light. I know that was all God.
He saw something in me that I didn’t quite see in myself. When I started developing my own relationship with Him, I began to discover who I was. I discovered that I am made clean in Christ. I discovered that I am preserved in Christ, and I discovered that I am called by Christ (Jude 1:1).
My birthday just passed, and I am officially a great 28. If the 18-year-old me could see all that I went through over the past 10 years, I don’t think she would believe she could make it. Honestly, I don’t think she would want to pursue this path either. I’ve had ups, and I’ve also had my downs that I wouldn’t wish on anyone; however, those down moments remind me to be kind. Those down moments remind me to love others. Those down moments remind me to be the best me that I can be until I know better than I do better – Maya Angelou said that. So I’m proud!
I’m proud of me for pushing through eight years of school. I’m proud of me for seeking, finding and doing (and continuing) therapy. I’m proud of me for developing a relationship with Christ. I’m proud of me for studying and now living abroad. I’m proud of me for pursuing Ergoi Agathoi. I’m proud of me for separating myself from negativity. I’m proud of me for learning how to cook. I’m proud of me for pursuing guitar. I’m proud of me for doing the dang thing! And while 18-year-old me may have said no to this journey, I’m glad that I’m here.
I’m still standing. God is with me, and I have more work to do. I won’t count me out or my next 10 years because if I could overcome so much in the past, I can only imagine how much more I will triumph over in the future.